You didnt love her. You just didnt want o be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just food for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didnt love her. Because you dont destroy people you love.
sorry i started to expect you to do the things i would expect myself to do i just started feeling weird after my throat just started deciding that it wants to close out of no where but no one knows well just you now.