In case you don't won't read all of this. It's about a professor telling a student about how God is not real. Then the student burns the professor wrong (is was an amazing burn!)The student was Einstein😱.
I'm in that in between stage. The point where you give it up and become broken hearted. How long will it take for him to surprise me with that big old teddy bear. Trust in God. Give Him everything. He has something better planned for you.