Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about discovering who God created you to be. “You have been set apart as holy to the Lord your God, and He has chosen you from all the nations of the earth to be His own special treasure.
This is something most people would not do. They would not mend a bridge that someone else burned. Too many times this happened over a foolish argument and you lost a good friend. I say reach out to them. Mend the bridge