Seriously. You look ridiculous!!! It's actually entertaining at times. We've had some good laughs about it!! And I'm serious. We have. So you should probably realize you're just a joke. You'll never have him in anything but your dreams. So dream all you want, but do it silently. We have a family and are planning to grow that family and marry so go away. You need nothing but tough love and the truth at this point bc you're still too dense to get it.