[ because that's what it felt like, she thought. every single time she watched him walk out that door the world ended - everything stalled until he walked back in and she never cared what state he was in. as long as he was breathing she would fix him. as long as he was breathing the world had started turning once more. ]
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love and take it away. So you'll add my name to your long list of traders who don't understand. And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can.