Traumatized people lose faith that good things can happen and people can be kind and trustworthy. They feel hopeless, often believing that the future will be as bad as the past, or that they will not live long enough to experience a good future.
Lol. Ik it's gonna happen around you one day. And I'm terrified of that. I don't want you to see me so weak. I can't help what triggers me. Nobody can. I just hope it doesn't happen when anyone is around.