I spend a lot of time with my friends, but you may see me as the queen bee of my friend group that does average in my classes. I need balance between studying & parties to feel emotionally stable, but express my needs & thoughts constantly partying and getting drunk. In love, I'm at the top of the class and I'm angry if my life gets out of balance.
I experienced the "no big deal, dying inside" just tonight. Not sure if I can deal with someone who's emotionally stunted, doesn't know how to open up. I'm way too emotional, feel everything. I want to talk about and share my feelings; it makes me feel alive. That's not a bad thing, is it?