I know I fucked up. My lie fixed something that was broken for a reason. He was a dickhead. And at the same time I cursed myself right out of your life. If I had told the truth you guys would have broken up and we would still be talking. And you would probably be my girlfriend right now. You would not have stayed mad at me because he already knew and how could you be mad at me for telling the truth.
Today I didn't faked being okay... I act like I felt: I was alone all day, doing nothing and not laugh at all, and it is today my friends get mad at me because they think I'm grumpy. Well I'm sorry, next time I'll just jump off the roof like my planning
Happiness truly starts with ourselves, first and foremost. Don't just date for the sake of having someone to date because you don't want to be alone. Learn to be happy being by yourself first and love yourself before you can learn to love someone else.