I am thankful for my struggle because without it I wouldn't have stumbled across my strength. I am thankful, struggling, and it's so hard, but thankful, and will continue to struggle till I get to where I'm going.
Never depend on someone else to make you happy. Only God can make you happy! Create yourself a full, happy life, seeking God and finding hobbies and ways to express your gifts, and your man will be included in your happiness, a gift from God.