you could pin this a million times and it would mean more every time. i really am trying to make everything better for us, applying for jobs and trying to clean our property up. i love you so much Alyssa you are the hero in our relationship though!
I don't really like the "sees situations more realistically", because in some severely depressed people's minds, suicide is the only logical answer. I understand the logic - but it is not a rational reality - which is why depression is a mental illness.
So that latest relapse, I was shallow as well, cheating on the man I was with. Things got real too fast, I knew he would mess up somehow, I prepared to by keeping multiple guys on the side hoping I wouldn't feel it but it still hurt to hear I'm ugly.