You'll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine. Maybe adding a daily habit of more love with your child might make a positive change for both of you.
There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, bt by making the darkness conscious - Carl Gustav Jung