I don't know whether I feel I'm betraying myself more when I eat or don't; I don't know whether I'm more disgusted if I purge or restrain from it. It was so much easier living without recovery in the books, I know it's wrong but why does it feel more right than eating normally?
I either totally realize which aisle of the walmart parking lot I'm parked on or I walk out of the store and have no clue. I either completely planded to place my keys there, or I totaly forgot where they are. I either think about you all of the time, or I don't know your name and face.