"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid" ~ Albert Einstein - Focus on where your strengths lie, not your weaknesses.
I have allowed the same thing to happen to me repeatedly for the past year. Time to start doing things differently. Your mind and heart must agree for change to work. God wants us to prosper above all things but he wants us to do it with balance.