Oh my gosh! This is what I mean when I say I lived a lie - but I did not live the lie. I really loved, I really needed love, I built a family. I was lied too, he lived the lie and fooled me and everybody else. I am not the liar!
Never depend on someone else to make you happy. Only God can make you happy! Create yourself a full, happy life, seeking God and finding hobbies and ways to express your gifts, and your man will be included in your happiness, a gift from God.