I did this bull shit for years. Putting up with crap from others just to prove that you've got your shit together is dumb. I found that creating peace in myself and surrounded myself with awesome people work way better. So take that status quo!
"You're going to do this to me after over two years? This is bull shit! She is the last person who should care about who I talk to. I want you to be my friend! To talk to me! And if she doesn't like it she'll just have to get over it!"- I'll never give up... ever again.