I think this is why people cut themselves because you can deal with physical pain easily. But emotional pain that is what makes people want to die, or live just so they don't hurt others and make them deal with what you deal with.
Her heart stopped that Wednesday morning. And that was the only time people ever told her that they loved her, and misses her, and needed her. And maybe if they would have told her that when she was alive and needed it that she would still be there