There's no point in consistently worrying about everything. What will happen will happen regardless. So breath, look on the bright side. Have some laughs, fall in love, accept what you can't change, and carry on. To actually live is courageous.
leave room in your garden for the angels to dance. I have a special "memory" garden where I put things I buy for my mom & other family members. (I don't like going to the cemetery. Plus, ornate things come up "missing" there.