I really feel this way because its hard for me take on the day when I can barely function mentally( not depressed, but loosing my thoughts) can barely stand up straight, this makes me just want to go to sleep and hopefully escape some of the agony.
I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.