"Explanation...what can Elizabeth have to explain? If you really say this, my questions are answered, and all my doubts satisfied...it is possible that you may dread, and yet be pleased with this explanation...in a probability of this being the case, I dare not any longer postpone writing...I have often wished to express to you, but have never had the courage to begin." Viktor do you love another? I have loved you for so long, but I can't bring myself to tell you. I'm scared to lose you.