Idk because like when I talk to you I feel like I'm going to fuck up something but like when I don't talk to you I feel like idk its a weird feeling I don't like because I'm not really used to not talking to you
I'm exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel. I'm truly trying to forgive and let go. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of crying. I know I'm enough. I just have to reiterate that dialogue internally and focus on the good.