"And what you'll never know is the war I fought, with myself, to not give up on you. But even if you did, I'm certain you wouldn't understand it. Because that's what it is like inside when heart and mind are enemies. War. And one has to lose."
Exactly!! It's really that simple. We gave up when THEY NEVER wanted to be around OUR KIDS, or be there for THEM, like we ALWAYS were for their kids! Finally we said enough, and THEY make bullshit excuses about us, instead of being truthful to their kids!! Lie away...
I gave up on myself, and her in the process. I love her more than existence itself. It kills me day-on-day to see her so joyous to be free of such a woeful pain such as I, but that is life, and life is all I sadly know.
If there's one piece of advice I can give you, it's this - When there's something you really want, fight for it, dont give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if ten years from now, youre gonna wish you gave it one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don't come free.