When my children remember their childhood, I want only for them to remember that their Mother gave it her all. She worried too much, she failed at times & she did not always get it right, but she tried her hardest to teach them about kindness, love, compassion & honesty. Even if she had to learn it from her own mistakes she loved them enough to keep going, even when things seems hopeless, even when life knocked her down. I want them to remember me as the woman who always got back up.
Do you have conversations with thoughts in your head? Does it feel a bit like a tennis match sometimes with "yes, but...", "no, but..." thoughts flying around? Don't get caught up in thoughts like that. They're really not very helpful. Allow your mind to settle. It will clear on its own.