Haha! This doesn't identify with me at all. What about despite your anxieties and fears and the illusions of people telling you you can't. Besides all the time you've procrastinated to disbelief and self doubt, keep going because you know you've tried harder than this before. Despite all of those things and increasing more to eliminate what is not really you, be who you are; your raw, pure self that believes in whatever the hell she does, no matter what they "say"