This breaks my heart. Although I have my bad days, I know some people struggle with this every day. I don't know what words to say to say without sounding cheap or fake, but thanks for being brave. The fact that you're reading this proves you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for.
It doersn't finish for Budd Dwyer, but basically he pulls a gun out on live tv, puts it in his mouth and pulls the trigger. You can google "Budd Dwyer" and watch the video, CAUTION: very gory and disgusting
Freaky Places - Haunted Yorkshire. I imagined like Ron burgundy trying to do an exorcist hear for the sake of the newscast, and he gets scared and fails and then gets thrown in the basement saying "stay classy America" to like a grudge looking person xD