Its ok to cry. Tears are the souls way of cleansing itself. Once done the load will be lighter. And if it's over a lost loved one. Talk to them. Even tho you can't see em, doesn't mean there not right there by your side. If they loved you, they will be there to listen. True love , wether friendship or family, never dies it just elevates to a higher level. We call them our guardian angels.
You are kissing her hugging her touching her smudging lovey dovey... instead you're killing me with every thoughts that run through my mind...so, how on earth is the one who is alone caused you so much tears.