Yes, you have failed. But we all fail sometimes. It's a spiritual warfare, our real enemy is not made of flesh and blood. The father of all lies will try everything to keep us out of the good fight. What are the keys to success in spiritual warfare? https://gotquestions.org/spiritual-warfare.html
Everyone wants to be a beast.. Until it's time to do what beasts do. If you want to be something, you have to practice it so it becomes second nature, you can't expect to get in the position and suddenly have the magical powers to perform.