Women are Scared of What they Seek. "I’ve always been a firm believer that whatever you want to find in a partner you need to exemplify those yourself. So in saying that, I invite you to explore who you’re being. How are you showing up to your relationships? The greatest relationships take two whole people. Two people who don’t need each other. Better yet. They want each other. Their love is born of choice, not of necessity." via Mark Groves
i'm just so scared to touch happiness only to have it taken away again maybe that is why i push everyone away and maybe thats why i'm so guarded but i don't think i can ever touch it without love and i don't know how to love not at all
im petrified if truth be known. i cant help it, something in me is broken and im so scared.im scared of everything,everyone, what if they turn out to be just like him, what if they say they love me, and then abandon me, use all my fears and insecurities against me and wittle me down till theres nothing left. im only just clinging on, i cant tell you this, i cant even say it out loud. if i do , im admitting defeat and hes won..... even tho he already has... he wanted to destroy me....he did.
My dear love,today is Wed and somehow I survived it easily, always a bit a hectic crazy day but is done.I see couples on the street holding hands and smiling and laughing to each other,then I feel a bit of pain that that could be us walking on the pavement and talking and holding to each other close.