Keep smiling. Keep praying. That's the way God likes it and with some patience, small patience, big patience, mega patience and patience you thought you weren't capable of you will enjoy it a whole lot more. Honour The One Who invented you.
I have nothing to go on period. You have made this an impossible situation for me because you insist on acting like a pampered princess expecting me to somehow read whatever the hell you want me to do in a language that is utterly foreign to me. You can't expect anything more from me than I have already given and I am more than within my rights to demand something from you