This is so true! You get to say yes and no, you create your environment and your life! It isn't forced on you and I wish more people would really pay attention to what they are accepting and what they are forcing themselves to live.
How are you sure that it's "every second"? Do you even count it? Like, when you suddenly want to go to the bathroom and forgot about missing them, then once you get out you say, "Okay back to missing them! 1... 2...".
Now do you understand my level of exhaustion? I need my wife in my arms. No one else can take the pain away and make me forget what I have to do. I don't want to do this. Jesus didn't want to do His in the Garden of Gethesme before His Crucifixion. Like it or not I have been Given a Destiny I cannot turn my back on but I need you to do it all. So what do you say. You want to take down Trump with me?
So my friend makes working Destiny/MassEffect/Warhammer replica weapons from Nerf guns for a living...