I know I'm not supposed to how you how hard this still is for me. I'm supposed to just bottle it up inside and act like nothing ever happened, act like I wasn't devastated. But sometimes it still knocks the wind out of me and suddenly gets so hard to breathe and hold back the tears
So very true. The pretending is a struggle that is neverending. It takes so much strength to keep my guard up, to keep my feelings tucked inside so that no one sees the pain in my heart. You are always on my mind Kelly.