Sometimes the heart just needs to continue out of habit in order to spare itself excruciating pain.. My pain is like an elephant pinning me down, I can't breathe and every organ feels like it's starved of oxygen.. The brain is so befuddled and obsessed that you can't do the menial of tasks ..this is when death seems more favourable..
He's been playing all this time, just to see if I'd let him back before he leaves me again. Now she's left maybe he will look me in the eye and talk to me. For so long he's been brushing me off but flirting through messages. I'm leaving it now, if he wants me he can if he goes off with somebody else it's over.