Please!! I cant deal with it anymore. Why cant anyone understand me and dont leave me. I m alone and then they ask you why are you so unhappy.....because you werent there when I need you. Sometimes I ask myself if I have friends? Real friends??...and my answer is always no..
I'm so fucking done with life but the worst part is that I can't even fucking leave because I don't know how that would affect anyone and what comes afterwards. Not that I fucking matter to anyone as it is. Not that anyone even cares about me. Not that I come first for anyone. Not that my existence matters. Everyone's out to get me. I'm an idiot because I push everyone away. Making it worse.