I made a mistake and judged someone who turned out to be a beautiful sweet person. I've apologized through multiple instagram direct messages but still don't think I'm forgiven bc she has not responded): I have been brought up to judge and criticize and I dont want to be that person thats why I have a wonderful husband and his family to show me the right way.
I blame myself. For everything I blame myself. Not you. I want you to know that. I should have kissed you a very long time. Like right when we first met. I'll make the first kiss special. I think it should be after all these years
••im sry u feel that way. i found out at 1:30 that i wasnt going to wrk. i feel sick. i just lost ur pics and thats really the most important thing i lost. and now ill need ur number but i feel like u prolly dont wanna give it to me. cuz ur really mad @ me.i really do miss u. and im sry im a pos
I hate all this!! I hate being sad all the time & you having to see it! :-( I feel like I am just no fun to be around anymore. I don't want to ruin your happiness..can't say I blame U for not wanting to be around me. I am sorry!!***
Everything I say comes out all wrong and I'm not trying to sound like this, I just don't know how I'm supposed to communicate and I'm sorry and I hate myself and I try to change, I really do, but I just keep messing up.
This is the last will and testament. Never again will I be insensitive to you. I just miss you so much sometimes that I cant handle it. I hope you find and are blessed with the things your heart desires Lauri. I am so, so, sorry.I just needed a little of your attention thats all.