This is the last will and testament. Never again will I be insensitive to you. I just miss you so much sometimes that I cant handle it. I hope you find and are blessed with the things your heart desires Lauri. I am so, so, sorry.I just needed a little of your attention thats all.
Looks like she got all that she needed and wanted out of me just to destroy another person that she was jealous of- but not really- the loser is the user- Not the one who fell for the fakery and lies- Users fake friendships to get what they want from you -sad and shameful to say the least
I'm starting to believe God is punishing me...I'm sorry for not being 'normal' and positive..i'm sorry that at 2 am while everyone is asleep i'm crying with thoughts of suicide engraved in my head...i'm sorry i'm a freak
This makes me think of my mom. When i have done something and i tried my hardest, she says i cant try my hardest because i have to be perfect. This drives me crazy. I dont like being perfect. I get straight A's and one B? She says im awful. I just feel so pressured to be perfect that i just break because i know im a dissapointment.
I blame myself. For everything I blame myself. Not you. I want you to know that. I should have kissed you a very long time. Like right when we first met. I'll make the first kiss special. I think it should be after all these years
That's what no one understands, you don't get over something like that it plagues you in every waking moment and makes you wish you were dead
I can't. I try but I can't. But you know this because we both said it to each other over and over. I guess you figured out a way to unlove me, so see you are stronger than you thought. I love you forever and I am sorry about that and for everything. May you be happy.