I woke up in tears ,,, no wonder. My body was remembering what started to happen this day 25 years ago. It was a terrifying time in the two days following. It culminated with a little ray of sunshine being born. Every day my soul misses her little soul. I love you Tilly ... I am glad we survived that epic entrance. I will always miss you <3
You can't. | That's the problem, we think we can and sometimes you just gotta recognize - that's it. And you learn to live your life anyway, but you put your soul away somewhere no one can find it and that's how you survive.
When will my heart stop missing you? I have to remind myself daily that ur not the person I thought you were. You'll disagree, but understand that it's who you were in the beginning that I miss. For so long I held on to & u wanted me to believe that that's who you were. I only had her for a year tho, then someone else took over and I kept searching desperately for the next 6 yrs, but she never came back. It's sad because I loved her very deeply. I guess I ❤d a lie.
Baby I`m sorry I put you through all of this ,I know you went through a lot because you are sensitive but actually today it was learning day about ptsd,gaslighting,narcistic abuse,toxic relationship,grey rock,intermittent reinforcement and lot more .I miss you and I need you and have to recover myself.So far I learned today bits and don`t know where to start even.I`m actually pissed at myself hat I was so blind and stupid in my life., psychologicaly damaged by the witch .