I'm a "pathetic cunt". I'm a "lazy piece of shit". It's always "all my fault". You can't "deal with me when I'm like this". All I ever do is either try to explain myself, help you, and then, inevitably, cry. I cry, because I'm scared. I'm nothing. I'm a loser. I'm defeated. I'm worthless. That result is of your making, not mine. I can't ever say I've done anything wrong because of how I am nowadays.
Just remember that the vast majority of violence against women AND MEN is perpetuated by men, but abusing someone NO MATTER YOUR GENDER is not okay, and it's DEFINITELY not okay for WOMEN to abuse men either.