I miss you Grandma. I nearly phoned you today to tell you about my holiday and then I remembered you weren't here. So I looked up to the sky and smiled because I knew you would already know how much I was enjoying the holiday. I miss you still though
I Do love everything about YOU!!! Today was so perfect..so wonderful!!! I just ache to be with YOU ALL of the time!! I Miss YOU so much already!! YOU truly are my soulmate!! I LOVED holding U..pleasing U..sharing...indulging ..talking..EVERYTHING!!!!!!
im petrified if truth be known. i cant help it, something in me is broken and im so scared.im scared of everything,everyone, what if they turn out to be just like him, what if they say they love me, and then abandon me, use all my fears and insecurities against me and wittle me down till theres nothing left. im only just clinging on, i cant tell you this, i cant even say it out loud. if i do , im admitting defeat and hes won..... even tho he already has... he wanted to destroy me....he did.
I won’t beg for your time and attention any more. The more you ignore me, the more I will get used to being ignored. If you stop calling me ,I will stop waiting for your calls. If you stop sending me text messages , I will get rid of my habit of checking …