One part of the day I can be outgoing and all jokes and smiles.. And then, for no apparent reason, I stop smiling and talking and seem to leave this world.. But I'm still here. It's just that my mind wonders and I let it.
And just to be perfectly clear here. I want to make sure you understand. I didn't leave you. I am trying and almost finished getting the education that is going to free me. It was never that I didn't love you. It's that I have two other people that I love and am responsible for too. If you had cared you would have worked harder to help me.
You were there for Me for years...You would come in just to make me smile...you knew I was so unhappy with my situation. You were there for me WHEN I NEEDED a smile. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW! YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND!
Sometimes life just seems too hard. Like nothing's fair. Everyone seems to be against you. They torment you. I feel so alone. Judged. Helpless. Hopeless. Sometimes you wonder, why am I still here?? A constant battle for me everyday. I feel lost. Unloved. Abandoned by friends. No one truly understands! I just wish things would get better for me, improve somehow. I want to feel happy and free again.
I am a question to the world. Not an answer to be heard, or a moment that's held in your arms. And what do you think you'd ever say. I won't listen anyway. You can't see me and I'll never be what you want me to be.