You seemed sorta suicidal to me. Maybe not, but I felt like I felt your struggle, it wasn't an attempt to "want" you. I wanted you to know someone cared. I don't regret doing that. I've encouraged you multiple times to love her and not take her for granted. If you were just taking advantage of my kindness, well, then you were. That's on you, not on me because I was a friend to you when you needed it.
"We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls." ~ Mother Teresa