I feel broken inside and I just can't believe I'll ever feel any differently. I don't know how to heal myself. I try but just when I think I'm getting somewhere, it disappears like sand through my fingers. Will I ever feel whole again?
This is a quote from American History X. I used this as inspirition as it it's film where a brother helped to change his younger borther's life who was going down the same path as him. Change can always happen regardless of the mistakes made.
I know that what's meant for me will always be for me. I know. But I just need a minute or two to pull myself together; because sometimes the shit life throws at me, gets a little bit heavy. That's all.
The me I was about 18 years ago, the me I was before I met him, the me I was before he destroyed every ounce of confidence and self esteem I had, and beat me down until I no longer resembled that person. Then he moved on and left me broken and battered, a