THIS is the most accurate description. Because seeing your true colors, helped me get over it. HOWEVER, it doesn't stop me from missing the person I thought you were sometimes. It doesn't stop missing the life I thought I had. The person I came home to every day for almost three years. I miss what I thought we had, who I thought you were, but I certainly don't miss who you turned out to be.
mindfulmft | Moving on after an ending can be so difficult. It's one of the hardest things we go through and no matter how many times we've been there before when we're in it it just doesn't seem much easier than the last. Sometimes closure looks differently than we imagine it. Sometimes we don't get all of the answer we're seeking. Sometimes it's not wrapped in a pretty bow with two people who amicably say "this is for the better." Sure maybe we know that's true on some level but most of…
Took me four years, but finally I begin to forget him in this year 5.. Then two nights ago, I have a dream and he is calling me on the phone to check on me in the dream. I haven't remembered my dreams in over 4 yrs.
Sometimes the heart just needs to continue out of habit in order to spare itself excruciating pain.. My pain is like an elephant pinning me down, I can't breathe and every organ feels like it's starved of oxygen.. The brain is so befuddled and obsessed that you can't do the menial of tasks ..this is when death seems more favourable..
i used to care about you, until i realized how pathetic i was to be crying over someone who simply didn't care. you hurt me, you made me feel like i was worthless, stupid, and unimportant. i let you get to me; in fact i let you control me. but i'm finally moving on. although you did teach me one thing: to never hold on to someone who isn't holding on to you. as for me, i know better. as for you, you lost a person who actually cared.