You've already met the one. You already made your commitment to me and to God. And no, as I said again, I'm not perfect and I am getting better every single day. And trust me, I will be the guy that is right for you and is there for you no matter what. I already am, even if you can't see it. But what I want to do is be an (almost) perfect guy. And you'll see that through my actions and commitment to you every day over this break, I swear.
I feel broken inside and I just can't believe I'll ever feel any differently. I don't know how to heal myself. I try but just when I think I'm getting somewhere, it disappears like sand through my fingers. Will I ever feel whole again? Life has worn me down so much, I just don't know anymore. What keeps me going? I truly don't know Xx ❤❤
I want to say this is inspirational but while I sit/awkwardly balance here, barely able to put pressure on one hip/arse cheek and struggling to stay awake I think of all the pressure, anxiety and lies I have been put through only to be let down and denied help at every opportunity and I'm not sure this is what the country is anymore!!
But you already see me that way don't you? You'll never let me forget, it haunts me. It follows me around like a cloud above my head, breaking me down at any moment. It's killing me. Your insults. The never ending insults hurt so much. I'm on the verge of breaking. S