"Sometimes she'll push away what she wants because she wants it too much. And too much scares the hell out of her. Because sometimes people lose themselves in wanting too much. I pushed you away for this reason Mel Payne
Philophobia: fear of emotional attachment; fear of being in, or falling in love. There is no real love to be found in toxic relationships, and the only emotional attachment you will form will be an unhealthy one.
And the thing you have to understand about her is she'll kill what she desperately wants, out of fear of the pain. Because somewhere along the way someone convinced her she didn't deserve it. So she destroys, telling herself holding the knife hurts less.
but seriously no one will ever love me. im either "too perfect" or you'd "rather be friends" or you "don't see the spark" in our relationship, it's all the same excuse. how can I be so damn perfect if no one can stay with me.
If I tell you I need you, do not take it lightly. I do everything I can to never depend on anyone, to never show weakness, and if I say that I need you, it means I am trusting you to catch me when I fall .