Philophobia: fear of emotional attachment; fear of being in, or falling in love. There is no real love to be found in toxic relationships, and the only emotional attachment you will form will be an unhealthy one.
And why is that. Not for my ex, but for everyone around me. Why do I feel so alone in a crowd. The one time I feel truly happy is when I'm around the one I'm beginning to love, or perhaps beginning to want to love is better. And why can't I tell her so, despite how I feel. It's just fear, fear of rejection. Because if she says no, I'll again be broken.
- JmStorm - I did this knowing I'd never felt love like this ever and while I was so happy it was always on my mind what if it doesn't work out... And a day later after a completely beautiful night of indescribable emotions, passions, and talks of marriage it was over without warning.... Worst day of my life and I've survived horrible things ... But this heartbreak is the only thing that's ever made me fear for my life.....
im petrified if truth be known. i cant help it, something in me is broken and im so scared.im scared of everything,everyone, what if they turn out to be just like him, what if they say they love me, and then abandon me, use all my fears and insecurities against me and wittle me down till theres nothing left. im only just clinging on, i cant tell you this, i cant even say it out loud. if i do , im admitting defeat and hes won..... even tho he already has... he wanted to destroy me....he did.