I promised myself I would never fall in love with you. But it was 4am, and we were laughing way too hard, and I felt happy for the first time in a long time, and I knew I was screwed. - I would never promise not to fall for someone, because I don't know who that person could be to me. If you're meant to be in my life, I will let it happen. I will try not to run.
I fell for you for all the above. I don't even know what it is about you anymore. You're like the exact opposite of what I wanted in a guy. I feel like I'm obsessing over someone that I'll never have yet I have this feeling that you kind of like me, too.
Someone once told me have faith, I didn't understand this because I hadn't truly found God yet. Having true faith in him allowed me to see that I didn't have true faith in people when I should have. For those that I should have when I didn't I truly do have remorse for this, and regret. I have faith that God will bring closure, what ever and when ever that be. But for now I have faith in myself to continue to again be reborn.
Evidently, I was "too needy" for a longtime former friend after I became mentally ill and needed to be hospitalized. This is someone who never lacks for friends while I do---and yet you'd never find me denying a friend in need.
"Try to love yourself as much as you want someone else to." You wouldn't let someone in your life talk poorly to you, so why do we let ourselves do it? Replace "I'm not good enough" with "I am more than enough". Replace "I'm a failure" with "I am striving towards my goals" and congratulate yourself for taking the steps to get there. You are a gem. Treat yourself as such. #DarlingSelfLove
It's unfortunately true, you lose that innocence of fully falling for someone and thinking nothing can come between you. You just never fall for someone like you did the first time, and you never will again.