I knew my little brother suffered from depression for years but I never thought it would take him to such depths that he would actually take his own life. I should have heard it in his voice I should have seen it in his eyes and I should have seen it in his poetry that he wrote to me. I will miss his smile and his cute button nose for the rest of my life #TheSunShinesBrighterBecauseHeWasHere ❤
You're going to need some care & support from a professional to deprogram the conditioning he's done on your psyche, especially if he managed to isolate you. Getting great help facilitates the healing process & there's no shame in it!