we think ANY emotion will last forever while it is with us. great joy, great depression. no. as the bible says, 'this, too, shall pass,' and every emotion passes. EVERY emotion. the deepest sorry. the most intense joy. they come. they go. and they visit again another time.
you're so hard on yourself. take a moment. sit back. marvel at your life: at the grief that softened you, at the heartache that wisened you, at the suffering that strengthened you. despite everything, you still grow. be proud of this.