Knocking yourself down first takes even more courage. That's when you expose everything that has been holding you back. It leaves you vulnerable for a while, but doesn't everyone owe it to themselves to be honest about what's holding them back? yes it hurts. But nothing will ever hurt more than missing out. That is lifelong regret! Take responsibility for the belief systems you react from, some are personal to you and others are cultural and societal.
The time has come and now it kills me because im tired of being hurt and left so many walls ive built so many people i shut out i just dont know if i want to do another relationship becuase i still think about her and it kills me why cant i stop thinking about her why its been 3 years and i still catch myself saying damn if i can only do it over aka mind of joseph