You have a busy life, juggling work, home, friendships, relationships, kids, and you're so used to being all things to all people you've forgotten who you really are anymore. Learning about yourself - what you need, want and like, what really makes you tick is the first vital step to increased happiness, reduced stress, contentment and clarity. After all, if you don't know what your needs are, how can they possible be met?
I don't think I relate to this in the way most people would...but for me it makes me think of my ulcerative colitis. people say to me "oh you've had it for so long you should be used to it by now" yes I am used to it, but it doesn't mean I'm not still in pain and struggling with it on a daily basis.
I know some who live in such a fantasy world, presenting someone who they are not truly, only for the fake applause and who are so lost when alone with themselves. Strangers to themselves. Just be you, the true you.