OMG LITERALLY FUCKING SAME!! DO U NO HOW HARD IT IS TO HAV ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE WEN U HAV SUCH HIGH LVLS OF ANXIETY? ITS HARD AND THEY NEVER WUTS GOING ON WITH U OR HOW YOU FEEL. THEY NEVER UNDERSTAND THAT THE PROBLEM IS WITH URSELF AND NOT THEM. OMFG IF U SHOWED THIS POST TO ME SOONER I COULD OF SHOWED IT TO EVERY EX FRIEND? BF IVE EVER HAD AND MAYBE THEYD FINALLY UNDERSTAND!!!
This is so true, once I went to the wrong classroom, I ran sweating with heart pulsing that the teacher would yell at me, I walk in panting, walk in, and the worst part of the story is, nobody noticed I was gone and nobody noticed when I walked in.
I have felt this same way so many times. The relief of getting back to your domain (your seat) and knowing you don't have to do that for a while is amazing. Then you feel it...that inconveniently timed urge to pee...and it all starts again.
I hate it. Every time I try to be me/more outgoing and actually get the guts to ask a question, compliment someone, or simply say hi, I tend to have to worst luck and get bitter people who don’t even acknowledge I said something… I don’t even get a smile. It’s very disheartening.
This seriously makes me wonder if my life is just a series of minor anxiety attacks, punctuated by brief bouts of calm. I don't adult well/easily, and I almost constantly feel overwhelmed, unless I'm actively engaging with my children, or in some creative