I wonder if I was right to finish things, I mean we have been away from each other for a week but today i caught him staring at me, like he used to. I hear something's which make me glad I left it, but then there are others with bring me close to going back.
Almost lovers we are what a sad sad tradgedy to know that there's that sparkle in their eye and think wow but then come back to reality and think it could never possibly be because you gotta do you and I gotta do me and if we cross paths ever again maybe someday we could be us...:)
It's-it's complicated actually. I'm losing him-them all of my friends, the boy that was my almost lover, and I have to sit here and watch my own decisions smash the relationships that I had-or almost did have. It's crushing and upsetting, I can't be there for them, the moment when I could make everything right. Do I survive, and move on or do I do something absolutely crazy as a desperate attempt to show that I care? Eitherr way this i this is DEEP SHIT :'